This first poem i wrote back in july when i was trying to figure out if i should give chase another chance or not....
Uncharted Waters
I am about to enter uncharted waters
But do I dare take the plunge?
To enter could put me in danger
Do I dare risk it?
I have attempted entrance before
Only to wash ashore broken and bruised
Why should this time be any different?
You claim the seas have changed
You say this time will be different
And yet everywhere I look
I see storms around the corner
Storms of despair
Storms of uncertainty
Storms of confusion
But the biggest storm of all
Is the one I fear the most
It’s the storm of heartbreak and loneliness
It’s a storm I am all to familiar with
Especially when you are at the helm
And yet this time there is also sunshine
Light and hope for a better day
Could you be right?
Could things have changed?
I do not know for sure
For now I have one foot on land
And another in the sea
Waiting for the winds to show me the way
Life is Hard
Life is hard
Love is painful
Hoy is fleeting
And relationships fail
But through it all
There is hope
Hope for a future
Hope for a way
Hope for the dawning of a bright new day
And with this hope I continue on
I cling to this hope
For its is my life vest
The only thing that keeps me afloat
For I am drowning
Drowning in this despair
Downing in this pain
Drowning in the depression that has claimed my soul
My soul is a tortured place
A place filled with brokenness
A place so dark that only I know its depths
For to the world I am whole
For to them I am happy
But this is all a façade
Just one of the many masks I wear
But one day it will be truth
At least that is what I pray
And that is the hope that I cling to
Each and every day!
